Well it’s 2015 and there are a lot of changes going on. I thought I’d take a moment to share with friends and ministry partners some of the changes that have taken place in my own life going into the new year. People will believe what they want to believe for good or bad, and some will come to their own conclusions despite even what I say here, but that is something I have no control over. For those who care, here is what I have to share.
Sometimes in life you come to crossroads…you look at where you’ve been, what you’ve done, and as much as you can, where you are going. As a Christian, I know my life and my plans are in God’s hands, Psalm 31:15, and I know that our lives are vaporous and vanishing in light of eternity, Psalm 39:4-5, and yet God gives each of us minutes, moments, days, months, and years to steward as best we can. While there is no guarantee of tomorrow, we still need to pray, plan, and persevere.
While reaching the half way mark, yes I turned 46, I started to reevaluate my life and ask some hard questions. What will I have to show for a life lived? Spiritually, vocationally, financially? What kind of legacy will I leave my children (and grand children?) Where do I feel God wants me to be, where do I want to be, and what will it take to get there?
There are a lot of pieces to this puzzle. I started by asking close friends for wise counsel. I opened up my heart to see if it’s “just me” or is something cooking that I need to act upon? I experienced a “holy discontentment” with where I was and where I wanted to be; I sensed that there was something more, not better, but more that I needed to do. I turned over a lot of rocks and had a lot of self- discovery that revealed a lot that I didn’t realize about myself. I was feeling under challenged and creatively dry. There were still some things that I wanted to pursue. There was still some mountains to climb, ground to take, and dreams to dream.
“You are never too old to set a new goal or to dream a new dream.”
After a year long process of conversations with my wife, close friends and trusted counselors I prayerfully decided to change a few things:
- I am going from my full time position as Worship Leader at my church to a part-time position. Eventually, I hope to simply volunteer like everybody else.
- I stepped down from my leadership position as an Elder at Church.
- I’ll be returning to my part-time position with a Real Estate Company as their maintenance manger for a few years to help them rebuild the company and grow their business.
- I also started a new business venture which I am extremely passionate about. The Chai Guy. After going on a mission trip to India and getting addicted to Chai, I started making it at every occasion and event that I could, someone suggested that I “sell it,” and so we launched this company. We are currently at the Rochester Public Market on Saturdays and we hope to partner with local coffee shops, restaurants, and caterers to bring them some awesome Chai! (We are booking weddings right now!)
- In addition to my personal blog here, I also started a new Business blog, The Entre Business Blog. This is aimed at small business owners and leaders to help them in their launch and provide ridiculously over the top customer service, and grass roots encouragement and instruction.
Why did I do all this?
I wanted more control over my time, my finances and my future. As a Christian I know that I am responsible for using the time, talents, and treasure God has given me to steward in the best way possible. I know I will be accountable for my life before a holy God. I want to make more space in life for the most important things to me.
I hear so many people complain about the economy, the culture, and they face the future with fear. I’m not ignorant of how dark the days are, but I know God is greater, stronger, and more faithful than anything else in this world. If we will take the time to pray, ask hard questions, seek wise counsel, and take personal and spiritual inventory, you may need to set a new course. Don’t be bound by fear…regret is a greater enemy.
Someone once said this…
“Most men lead lives of quiet desperation
and go to the grave with the song still in them.”
I for one choose not to be among the silent, desperate, joyless, and directionless drifters on the sea of life. I do not have it all figured out, but I choose to launch out, trusting and believing, that there’s still more to come in the last half of my life.
How about you? If you feel stuck in a rut…if you feel there is something “more” that you should be doing, not better, but different, maybe you need to start preparing for a journey.
Sail on my friend…God speed.
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